Sunday, July 26, 2009



I didn't see it coming!

Yesterday I had an episode of fear... fear of the cancer recurring.

I had been having a bit of discomfort and bladder frequency and then I got a tough headache and dizziness.

I boot it to the doctors... turned out to be a UTI, but not before I was gripped with fear.

I had no idea that I would ever feel like this. I have followed the prescribed treatment plan and have not ever thought about my cancer"recurring or progressing".

I read this:

Worrying about the cancer coming back (recurring) is normal, especially during the first year after treatment. This is one of the most common fears people have after cancer treatment. And even many years after treatment, this fear may still be in the back of your mind.

It makes me feel a little better to read that this is normal.

I will have to live the next few years with this uncertainty.

I also read this:

Once we have learned to put our trust in God, we will no longer be afraid of the things that come against us. We will be like the psalmist who said with confidence “…let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you” (Psalm 5:11).

This gives me great comfort.

I will trust Him.


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  1. Anonymous26 July, 2009

    Passivity creates a culture of hopelessness. I believe it is possible to protect ourselves against cancer before AND after the disease. We can have a substantial impact on our body's capacity to defuse the mechanisms of cancer.

    Researchers at the University of San Diego and at Stanford have shown that cancer patients who, AT THE SAME TIME of treatment, adopted a healthier diet and regular exercise consisting of a 30-minute walk 6 days a week, lowered their risk of relapse by nearly half.

    Serious illness can be a terribly lonely journey; raising our anxiety levels. Gentle, constant, reliable presence is a great gift we can give each other. Your blog does that for me - it has bouyed me for the last 4 months. Thank you.

    It's going to be just fine. We will help each other get through this adventure.

    Take care,
    Jane

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